Just beginning

This is my first blog. Usually I am one to keep things to myself but if everyone else can do this than so can I. Just to tell a little about myself, I am a single mom, have been separated from my husband for a few years now. We were together for 21 yrs. We have 3 kids together and he had a daughter from his first marriage that I love as my own as well. I have my youngest daughter Morgan, who is 11 living with me, Britany is my stepdaughter and she is 25, she is married and I have a 2 yr old grandson named Bo. And my ex has my boys, Dennis is 18 and Drew is 15. Let me tell you it is hard going from having a big family to just 2 of us. So quiet. Sometimes it is nice and other times its just too quiet. Things are tough sometimes but I trust in the Lord. He has done so much for us lately. I can truely say that I am blessed! Another thing about me is that I am a recovering addict. I have been clean for over 3 yrs now. The first 16 months I was locked up, but I have been strong for the last 2 yrs since I was released. Truely someone up there is looking out for me. When I got out things were so tough. I didnt have a home. My husband was living with another woman. I moved to Arkansas to my moms with my youngest 2 kids with just a bag of clothes for each of us. I didnt know what I was going to do. Just knew I wasnt leaving Texas without my kids. Depression set in worse than when I was locked up so I got help down here and stayed on depression and anxiety medication, also was on medication to help me sleep. My 18 yr old made the decision to stay with his dad. It was his senior year and he had a girlfriend and didnt want to come. That still hurts. I have missed so much of his life. He was 15 when I went in. And sometimes I feel like I dont know him anymore. I did get to spend a few weeks with him last summer when I went to visit Brit. It just wasnt long enough. Wasnt the same.

Well a few months after I moved here, I started going to church. You see I was saved when I was locked up. Spent alot of my time taking classes to improve myself. And going to church in there. And spent most of my free time in the cell reading the bible. In the midst of a horrible situation, I was able to find peace in Gods words.
A month or two after I started going to church here, Me and Morgan were baptized. It was an awesome experience. I slowly but surely felt like I was a part of something more than just the here and now. Things were looking up. Eventually I was able to take myself off of all my medication except my sleeping medication sometimes when I need it. Its so nice having people to be there for you.

I lived with my mom for about a year and a half and now I have my own place. God had his hands on that one too. I have a good job working at Ranger Boats.  I have been blessed with so much these last few months. We are now on our own two feet. We have a home. Everything that we need. I moved in with hardly nothing and within a week I had everything I needed. There are so many caring people out there! Every time I opened the door I wanted to cry. Never thought I had that many people that cared about me. Never thought I was worth it. But I knew the Lord had my back. I put my trust in him and he blessed me more than I would ever think could happen. I just hope one day I  can help someone else like people helped me.

These are my boys Drew and Dennis

And my daughter Morgan

This is my daughter Britany and her husband Adam

And my handsome grandson Bo